October 28, 2019
Another day. Another sore throat. My dog was laying on the bottom part of my bed as she was snoring really loud. Said my prayer, woke up and took my medicine. My only concern was getting through my college tasks for the day and going back to bed. Sadly, my mind will not let me rest. Random songs and poem ideas were flooding my head. Before I could write them down, it was time for me to head to my class.
After an excellent lecture from my public speaking professor, I looked over my notes and thought about everything she had said. That woman has a way with words unlike most professors. She is able to speak her main points about today's lecture, while balancing out her jargon and personal way of speaking. It is incredible! As I head to the car, I rest my head back as my Mother talks my head off and drives me home.
While I was listening to her conversation, there goes those bible verses again. No matter what I was thinking about, the verses kept getting louder and louder in my head. Usually, I understand what the Lord is telling me everyday, but this time it was different. Finally, I was able to get home and lay in my bed. So I was able to finally get some sleep right? Nope! I checked my email/discord and decided to state what was on my mind again.
Why? Why does this keep happening? The random song lyrics, bible verses and poem ideas was just scrambling all over my brain. What does this mean? These visions. What do they mean?
Now don't get me wrong, I always have weird visions in my head. And this is coming from somebody who has never done drugs or consumed alcohol. Sometimes the visions overtake my way of thinking and cause me to act in ways that are considered abnormal. What are those abnormal actions? You guess.
So here I am in my bed, listening to music, checking my college courses for updates on assignments and checking around the house for chores to do. My phone buzzes and I receive tons of informational links from my Father. However, I was too mentally drained to care at the moment. After I performed my daily tasks, I looked up some videos, checked my discord and talked to Crystal Sushi. She discussed how her dog died after fighting a snake. Without thinking, I tagged everyone and started paying my respects.
Yup. Why did I do that? Would they even care? I mean this is gonna be like the 4th time that somebody tells me to stop. Gotta love being born with memory problems. I wonder why I care so much? Sometimes, I even wonder why God is bugging me so much?
Ugh! I am just so frustrated. I do not understand this social media garbage! Why does it exist? Why can't these companies treat consumers right? What the hell is wrong with our president? Am I losing it again?
These were the thoughts that clouded my mind while the bible verses were being rehearsed in my head. Not to mention that I was thinking about how to accurately present my speech 4. While all these thoughts were circling my mind, another day is gone. I kiss my dog good night, pray and I pass out in my bed. I can only imagine what will happen the next day.
To be continued....
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